A New Beginning

A new beginning 

            For the past few years of my life, I've been suffering to what we called depression. Some of my new friends know about it since I am not really an open book. I've been writing pieces also about depression, but I am keeping it for myself for it may also cause negativity to other readers. 

        But for now, I am proud to say that I have pulled myself up from the depths of depression. Yes, it's never an easy thing. Depression is not just weeklong suffering or a month-long agony. It stays for years, along with your insecurities, self-pity, criticism and false hopes.

        I was once a great adviser for some of my friends, but never good enough in my own decision making. I have once imprisoned myself to a certain perspective that hinders me to explore the beauty of life. I was once stubborn who failed to accept comments and better suggestions from other people. I was once living a life that I thought it was right and I am fighting for it against all odds. And I was once a devil, but later found out a helping hand of an angel.

        Realizations come in the end. Later I found out that it was all me. It’s me who creates my own problem, my own insecurities, my own doubts, and my own suffering. As the saying goes, “You can only reap what you sow”, it clearly explains that you can’t have all the positivity that you desire when you planted a negative seed in your being.

        Everything is now clear. Thanks to those who stayed behind my fight of depression. Especially to that someone who completely held me up to rise back and become better. Someone who opened my eyes that there so much good things await.

-      Angel 👼

Disclaimer:
This blog was created based on my own experience. I did not intend to promote someone or something, but this is to share how was my experience. For comments and recommendations feel free to speak up. Don't be too harsh for your comments, I just started writing a blog, be my helping hand to become better. Peace for all of us!